VERY late reply, but thank you the words :)
I was on a depression phase 10 months ago when this was posted, but unfortunately I'm still stuck on that phase. I don't know when I'll be ready to get back up, but recently I'm starting to see a glimpse of hope--a light at the end of the tunnel.
I just don't know how I'm gonna fix my big mistake in the past, I really don't. Fuck.
Just letting you know that I think about your post from time to time