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[–] [email protected] 1 points 1 week ago (1 children)

I mean I already sort of accepted this reality that there is no hope anymore about a year ago so it's okay. I just hope my death will arrive soon and I hope life is not indefinitely repeating itself cause that would mean eternal suffer for me

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 week ago (1 children)

Thanks a lot for these tips I really appreciate that. I wish I had any friend I could talk to but unfortunately I don't have a single friend. But I'm happy that you had something that worked out for you!

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 week ago

Thanks for that information I will look into that!

[–] [email protected] 1 points 1 week ago* (last edited 1 week ago) (1 children)

I feel like the burden of living with my parents is so strong that I have no motivation for any hobbies. I gotta move out first but like I said I already tried and failed. It's like a negative spiral that seems impossible to get out of.

Normally I have lots of hobbies such as working out, jogging, swimming and have many interests including technology, science and social activities. I partly did all that when I wasn't living with my parents. But currently my state is paralyzing me and preventing me from doing any of that.

[–] [email protected] 3 points 1 week ago

Ich hatte bereits in sämtlichen Einrichtungen wie Pflegefamielie, Klinik, Kinderheim und Verselbständigungseinrichtung gelebt aber es hat alles leider nichts gebracht. Vielleicht finde ich irgendwann noch etwas hilfreiches

[–] [email protected] 0 points 1 week ago (3 children)

Yea I think I will just give up, I tried so much for so long all for nothing

 

Hello there, I'm a 21 year old guy from Germany and have very strong depression because of the constant abusive, toxic and manipulative behavior that I received from my parents since I was a kid.

Those strong depression are also the reason why I struggle a lot in life to get anything done by myself and become independent.

I already lived on my own when I was 17 but I failed because of my depression that made me incapable of taking care of myself which is why I moved back to my parents a year ago who only make it way worse for me because they won't stop hurting me and treating me like a awful person.

I feel so stuck in life and I tried everything from therapy, mental hospital and medications but nothing worked. The burden is just too strong causing me to feel worthless and incapable of living, I have lots of shame, guilt and major anxiety.

It's like being paralyzed by the fear of life.

My biggest dream always was to get rid of my parents and live independently on my own but I'm just incapable. I wanna get rid of this victim state so bad but I can't find a way to escape/deal with the hurt.

Is there anything I can do?