Vaporwave minidiscs
I love minidiscs!! I found my Sharp MD the other week and I wanna start collecting MDs.
I was thinking of collecting MD players too, Defo want one of the later NetMD players.
Fudoshin
joined 10 months ago
Sounds very manly.
Swarfegga!!! Fucking great memories of playing in my grandads workshop and cleaning my hands with the green jelly before going into the house.
Anglophilic
There's creams for that.
I commute to Manchester
That's the only reason you're coping. Manchester is the greatest city in the World so it offsets the utter abortion that is train travel. Where are you coming from? North, East, South West? If it's some shitole town like New Mills I can imagine the train journey is a euphoric experience.
Edit to add: I go to London a couple of times a month. Not had a significant issue in years.
On second thoughts you may have brain damage. It's not normal to think train travel and London are acceptable to life. You should speak to your doctor and ask about traumatic brain injury or tumours. Could explain things.
My living room window is open and my feet* are freezing but I canna be arsed to stand up and close it. It's causing all the inner doors to shake in their frames. Very exciting. Probably the most intensely exciting it's got all day.
I do not have a very interesting life.
*Sorry mods.
the UK has similar
Our idiots are idiots - they aren't insane idiots. MAGAts can only happen in a country without universal mental health care.
Well I have to assume people who don't like they're own feet are clearly batshit crazy and walking round on stumps. Bunch of foot-hating weirdos.
OK I'm gonna speak to my GP at some point cos this isn't the first time I've contemplated having undiagnosed ADHD.
Funnily enough I did an online autism test the other day and it said I was "Highly Likely" autistic. But then it says further down the page they charge ~£2k for diagnosis from a private clinic that obviously wants to push for more profit. Who do I trust? It isn't helped by the fact most ADHD, autism and cannabis diagnoses/prescriptions are private so there's a profit motive to them all. Poor people don't qualify. On Universal Credit and have ADHD? You're fucked cos the meds cost £00s per month or a 3yr waiting list if you're lucky.
Added to the fact diagnoses is just confirmation bias. I can look at every disorder in the DSM from BPD to bloody schizophrenia and I fit every single one. It's about picking the right memories. Am I asocial? Yes! But isn't everyone? Am I miserable? Yes, of course! Do I procrastinate? Yes! Am I selfish? Yes, sometimes! Do I shit twice a day? Yes! Do I have problems concentrating? YES!
But wait...is that cos I've been lay down on the sofa all day browsing Lemmy? Come to think of it does that explain everything? Is browsing Lemmy 12hrs per day the cause or a symptom of something?
I see people talk about ADHD symptoms online all the time and I go - "yeah I get that". It's become so common that "neurodivergant" sounds neurotypical! Do you remember how "OCD" got overused? People would say "I'm so OCD cos I had to bin the toast I dropped butter side up". Erm, no it's dirty and it's obvious. That's kinda how it feels when I see people complain about ADHD symptoms - "no you're not ADHD - that's just normal".
In fact lets try it:
- Short attention span, especially for non-preferred tasks - yes absolutely.
- Hyperactivity, which may be physical, verbal, and/or emotional - When I was a kid my mum and aunties called me "hyperactive!. As an adult I get very hyper around people I know to the point of being annoying. I've been accused of having 'child like energy'.
- Impulsivity, which may manifest as recklessness - drug abuse and overspending into £20k debt so yes.
- Fidgeting or restlessness - I climb around/over chairs. I don't just sit.
- Disorganization and difficulty prioritizing tasks - my flat is a fucking bomb site and after 3yrs I've still not unpacked.
- Poor time management and time blindness - I'm late to anything/everything or extremely early to compensate.
- Frequent forgetfulness - I just showered and after putting on an item of clothing I forgot what I was doing and waked into the lounge before remembering and walking back. So yes, very.
- Daydreaming and the appearance of not listening - all the time. I'm normally in my own world more than the real world.
So do I have ADHD? AFAIK everyone has those at some point. Fuck knows I assumed this was all normal and I was just shit at life...? My head's at war with itself. On one hand I don't want more drugs because I was an addict and antidepressants don't work. On the other I keep seeing reasons why I should ask for a diagnosis because it seems blindingly obvious.
I also did coke a few times as a student and once in my late 20s with the same result - calm mind but with palpitations. Someone told me it was probably "shit coke" but it had great reviews from everyone else. I also took modafinil for a few months and it helped my motivation - it's thought to act in a similar way to ADHD meds and is being studied as an ADHD med.
I don't know. It's annoying to think the 40yrs of my life being a complete cluster fuck could be explained by a diagnosis and some pills. Do you see where I'm coming from?
They're best eaten cold out of the tin. 10x better. 👍
the odds of me losing focus is greatly reduced and getting stuck being indecisive over minor things is greatly reduced. It doesn’t turn me into Superman, it turns me into Clark Kent. Comparing ADHD medication to calm down with addiction to stimulants making you feel like Superman is the dumbest shit I’ve read this month.
It was hyperbole but my point stands. I feel "normal" on meth. In your words yes I feel like Clarke Kent. As in you suddenly feel how you think you're always meant to feel.
My point is the effects ADHD people describe when 'finding a med that works' are exactly the same as those of a normal person doing stims. There's literally no difference except heart rate.
I get the impression you've no idea what meth is like - let me explain: It's exactly like when you take ADHD meds. That alive/awake/suddenly I'm here. That's it. OK It's obviously got major side effects when taken to excess (e.g. 4 day wanking binges or obsessive sorting/cleaning). But I'd argue those are signs of OVERDOSE not meths inherent effects. Which doctors agree with because guess what!? Methamphetamine is prescribed to treat ADHD!!! Along with methylphenidate and guess what I used to abuse? Ethylphenidate - almost exactly the same effects.
So either I've been self-medicating away an undiagnosed ADHD disorder or ADHD isn't a thing and people are simply taking performance enhancing legal drugs and explaining it away as medicine. Cos I'm tlelign you as an addict they are designed to make you feel fucking fantastic. It's literally in the medical literature. It's not a fucking surprise you feel great on ADHD meds - EVERYONE would and does!
OK look at it form a different angle: Lots of people are terrible at socialising. A new diagnosis of "Asocialphobic Personality Disorder". Doctors have discovered an excellent new treatment for it called Ethylene Hydrate which you take 44ml of every 2hrs. It cures the new disorder Asocialphobic Personality Disorder!!! WHAT HO!!! Miracle - we've fixed the worlds problems.
Except Asocialphobic Personality Disorder doesn't exist and Ethylene Hydrate is just another name for alcohol.
Alcohol makes you more sociable. But sprucing it up in scientific language sure makes it sound like a solution to a problem that doesn't exist.
I don't have a problem with ADHD sufferers or people taking meds. I do have a problem with the hypocracy. People used to medicate on alcohol for anxiety. Same with opium for pain, cocaine for motivation and many more. Native tribes used to chew coca leaves to travel long distances. Opium was used for operations.
Kratom was used heavily by SE Asians to manage long work days...remember this one!
When the world is screaming at you: PERFORM, CONSUME, PERFORM, WORK, CONSUME, PERFORM, CONSUME, WORK, WORK, WORK.
You're being left behind, life feels kinda shit - cos life IS shit!! So what do you do?
You ask: What could be wrong with me? How do I fix myself?
Doctors invent a whole new diagnosis and start prescribing uppers. What do they do? They make you PERFORM and WORK and CONSUME! Suddenly you fit into the life around you. It's not you who was broken - the WORLD is broken. You felt shit precisely because life is SHIT! Have you heard that things like depression, ADHD, Autism and other mental health issues are more common in the developed world than in the developing?
Ever wonder why?
It's not because the doctors are shit. It's because they don't need diagnoses to explain their situation.
Drugging yourself with ADHD meds and antidepressants has become the new religion. In the past we could blame shit on god. We could find comfort in religion. When we see problems now we turn to doctors and science.
Nothing changed - life is shit. It's miserable and painful. ADHD meds didn't fix you. They mask the reality of life.
There's no difference between your med use and my meth use except dosage and legality.
I've written too much on ADHD to be bothered with Autism so I may/not answer that later. This will do for now.
You have to speak the language of the savage for them to understand. You know how orangutans can be taught sign language but can't understand words? Same with Septics. You have to speak in simple sentences and drop words like eagle, gun and IQ for them to grasp what you're saying. Bit like how Trump speaks.