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Eh, you don't seem like a bad person. Bad people don't feel bad for the bad things they do. Being gay or bi has nothing to do with this, so why bother mentioning the fact? If you genuinely feel that you have a mental disorder then you need to see a doctor and get recommendations for either medication or therapy to learn coping skills for your issues. Simple as that. You already made the first step by admitting that you may have a problem. Next step is to get the help you need to be able to obtain and sustain a happy, healthy mind. Good luck, buddy.
I wouldn't go that far, I think it's a very relevant detail for OP's situation.
Internalized homophobia is a real and unfortunate phenomenon for people who grew up in restrictive environments, and it can result in a lot of self-hatred and mental distress, including diagnosable disorders.
And the worst part about it is the shame some people feel about the whole thing might have them feeling that talking to a doctor or therapist is simply not an option, as they are not prepared to be "out" to others, even under the protection of medical confidentiality. The very idea of being out can be internalized as a failure, especially if it would burn bridges with bigoted family members (which is easy to say from the outside looking in that bigots aren't worth your time anyways, but not so easy when that is your entire support network and every happy memory you had since childhood).
It's definitely not simple, at any rate.