loopedcandle

Jeez. I know how to feel about the act itself. It's awful of course. What I don't know is how to deal with is knowing that I did that. I can't change what I did and I can try my damnedest to not do it again. But how should I deal with knowing what I did and the guilt and shame post facto.

I am a regular consumer of online porn. And I'll admit, I loved their videos. Now knowing what was going on, that's on me to do some thinking, i have probably watched a rape and helped the perpetrator make money from that act. That's hard on the conscience. I don't know what to think about it.