My father also had failed business business ventures and over the years we went from upper middle class and the finances just kept getting worse and worse. I appreciate him even more for all he's done. He's given us everything he could and then some, we know he's sacrificed himself for us.
Don't worry about your kids. Your children will undoubtedly appreciate all you do and love you more.
Secondly I just wanna say your finances do not define who you are. You are not a better person by being rich. You are a better person for all you've done for your kids and for your morality.
Just remember you don't want it.
Have a trigger to make sure evertrimrbyou have an urge to go on there you do not. Pinch your arm or smth. Put it in a folder on the last page of your phone and the few extra taps and swipes will be enough to remind you or trigger your memory not to do it.
Find out why you go there?