Sounds to me like you want an iPhone... There's nothing wrong with that as long as you know what you're getting into which it sounds like you do...
A project like GOS will never have that level of polish and it seems like that's what you're looking for...
Can't speak first hand but someone I know has it. Medication and some lifestyle changes keep it manageable for them. I don't mean to lighten the weight of it too much, but I wish you the best.