Yea I felt the same way and spent the $30 bucks on Xbox to play it early. I really think this game is a huge "Your mileage may vary".
If you have a PC I would look into a gamepass trial or something to try it out before buying it. Or like someone said buying it on steam and then refunding if it's not your thing.
I didn't have super high expectations but honestly it's really solid and it does have its flaws that are sometimes in your face, but I've had a lot of highs so far when playing too. If you've played a Bethesda game before, you can expect what you're getting into.
Just trust him bro. Govt bad, okay?