DarkMessiah

The people who benefit from division, confusion, and inability to determine information from misinformation. Aka, the rich and powerful.

As often as l can get away with. The more buIIshit about myself out there, the Iess IikeIy peopIe wiII be abIe to sift through it aII to find anything reaI l might have Iet sIip. Because l’II be honest, l’m not very good at poIicing what l say about myseIf. The next best option is to poIIute anything you might be abIe to gIean about me with mass amounts of misinformation.

That only works if they can read or are open to changing their mind. These kinds of people can’t, generally.

I like how this implies that Groundskeeper Willie uses Linux.

Learning how to edit code during runtime to remove any DRM or remote shutdown code would be the first thing I do even before getting into my new steelsuit.

ARCANE!!!

I'm over here thinking: Oh, League of Legends fans are all overreacting over getting something that's probably decent at best...

My friend, let me tell you, they were not overreacting.

Fucking billions! ONE billion would be enough to never have to work again if you live lavishly! And this irresponsible, pathetic narcissist is having a tantrum because number won’t go up. I actually want to be alone in a room with him tied to a wall and a set of supplies that would make the CIA go pale. Same with every other sociopathic manchild that’s killing us all because ”Durr, number go up,”

I clicked it out of curiosity, once. It just took me to Google.

I can’t save money because of my home and car loans. Hell, I wouldn’t be able to eat if it weren’t for my parents helping me out with cooking cheap meals and borrowing money, which I always feel like shit for doing. My job tires me out enough that I can’t work up the energy to fight past my ADHD paralysis to job hunt for one that pays more. I can’t get a raise because of said ADHD paralysis fucking with my productivity. I also can’t work up the energy to clean up and repair enough that I could rent my place out and move back in with my parents. And selling the house is off the table—my parents are the only ones that are close enough to my work for me to be able to make it without a three hour drive, and they’ve got a full house atm.

I was rejected for a refinance that would’ve bought me $400 a month worth of breathing room. And the energy credit is running out soon, so I’m about to start being $200-300 in the hole.

I can’t work up the energy to go out and meet someone who could be my significant other, even if that were something I had any skill or confidence in doing.

Hell, I look at my mates and they’ve got their shit on better lock than I do in some ways. Brian and Marcus have rented their house out and moved back in with their parents, ended up making about $400 a month in profit. Nate doesn’t even have a job, but he has a wife (which is really confusing, considering how he looks), and their combined Centrelink payments let them save up for big purchases they may need to make. Even Carol has a partner and a job at a casino making double what I do. (Names changed for privacy)

BUT!

I have gone through too much, survived too much to let all the effort of doing so go to waste. Even if it ends up being useless in the end, I’m going to take every opportunity I can force myself to take in order to get myself into a better place. No way in hell I’m letting the world push me into a corner without giving it a black eye on the way.

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I’ve been diagnosed with ADHD since I was fourteen. I am now thirty. I’ve done my research to manage my condition and have come across this; and even more, I have experienced this very thing. It is not the whole picture, certainly, and as ADHD is a spectrum, it will not be present in all of us; but it is not an uncommon symptom; and it’s basically what I could pull from the post without making assumptions about anon’s other characteristics.